Oh yeah, clearer pictures would be great whenever you get a chance.

Absolutely. crying is OK. I dare say, even good My mother went through grieving about my step-dad a few years back. We talked about it a lot. She studied psychology and was a social worker. One thing I learned about the process is that the stages don't need be in succession. Whatever emotions come up are good. I've been getting into the drumming of Elvin Jones lately. Kind of reminds me of how he played. I'd call it naturally overlapping/evolving rhythms. Whatever our individual experiences are, they are all valid. Warm wishes.